Sex With My Step Brother

Let me clarify one thing. I have two step brothers. One on my dad’s side, whom I reference in this post, and one on my mother’s side. He is referred to as super annoying step brother in this post on Anginae’s blog, so I will call him SASB for short here. He is super annoying, so I can’t think of a better name for him.SASB is a little less than a year older than me. He was somewhat estranged from my step father until I was in 7th grade; not long after my mom and step dad married. We moved to the to the same town that SASB lived in and they started their relationship back up. It was an ok relationship, never really close but they got along for the most part. I also got along with SASB ok. He was close to my age and we would do stuff together as a family. He as always gotten on my nerves a bit, hence the name. He would come over to my house and I would go over to his. Every once in a while we would spend the night at each other’s houses.One weekend I spent the night at his house along with a couple of his cousins. We were messing around one night and started playing a game of truth or dare. Nothing really serious happened, just a group of young teenage boys being stupid. We never did anything to each other, but some it involved showing each other our dicks and so forth. Just really juvenile stuff. A few weeks later I spent the night at his house again. He told me his cousin had spent the night the week previous and they played truth or dare again. He said they mainly did some of the same stupid stuff, but also that his cousin had dared him to touch his dick. I think he was bringing it up to see how I would react. So that night we played truth or dare. Again most of it was still stupid stuff, but at the end we dared each other to touch each other’s dicks. I wanted too of course, but I was very nervous about what I was doing.So basically that’s how it all started. Whenever we would stay the night at each other’s house we would play truth or dare. Things gradually escalated of course. Now I realize my entry title says sex with my step bother, but I never had really had sex with him. We mainly just messed around with each other’s cock, gave each other head and would eventually jerk each other off (I’m not trying to pull a Bill Clinton here, but I’m sure gay sex to most people means anal sex). It took a little time to work our way up to this. It started off slowly. We would dare each other to something for just a few seconds. As time went on the dares got longer until we just kinda did what we wanted to each other.This went on for about a year or so until I stopped it at the beginning of my sophomore year in high school. Although SASB denied that he was gay, in school he had always been accused of being gay (because he acted really gay). He just has a lot of the stereotypical mannerisms that when you meet him you think “man that guy is gay”. I can completely understand why in high school he tried to always convince everyone he was straight. He dated a few girls, even Anginae’s best friend for a while. I think he come out not long after he left college. It wasn’t really a big surprise.I’ve always wondered if he thought I was really gay.  I often felt a sense of pride that I was able to beat being gay and he didn’t.  I know that’s horrible to say, but it’s true.  Right now he is one of the last people I want to know.  I’ve never really been completely comfortable around him.  What we had done in the past is one reason, but also I don’t trust him.  He is the type of person who always seem to be working an angle to get something out of people.  He’s always been a bit of a phony in my opinion.  Anginae now thinks he has always had feelings for me; more than just as a step brother that is.  A few months after Anginae and I started dating he wrote me a letter saying how he missed being friends and wished we could hang out together again.  SASB had a bit of a falling out with my step father and I hadn’t really been around him much.  It was a good reason to stay away from him.  I wanted nothing more to do with him at the moment.  I wanted to be as far away from him and what we had done as possible.  I really don’t know what he thinks of me and I don’t really care.  It has always creeped  me out what I did with him.  I mean he is my step brother after all.  No blood relation of course, but still, sucking your step brother’s dick is pretty weird.I wish I could say I didn’t enjoy what we did.  I never had any special feelings for him.  We never kissed or did anything that people who like each other in that way do.  It was just a way to get off with a guy and I liked it.  I always felt like crap when we were done.  Partly because I was ashamed of being gay and also because I was doing stuff with SASB.  Someday he will probably know the truth about me.  I guess then I can find out if what we did really meant something to him.  All I can say is I sure hope it didn’t.